Counseling

I'd like some feedback from people that have been to or are going to counseling. I'm going to a therapist at the insistance of family members because I've been through a really rough time the past couple of years and apparently I wasn't handling it very well. My doctor said I had depression and prescribed me an anti-depressant to take every day. Well, after a month of taking it, I didn't feel any different and I don't like the idea of some chemical altering my brain. So, anyway I started seeing this counselor about 2 months ago. I go once a week. I don't feel any different. Actually, I leave there feeling worse. She twists my words around and is constantly make me dwell on mistakes I've made in the past. Well everyone makes mistakes -- it's a part of life. I thought that the whole purpose of mistakes was to learn from them and move on so why must I constantly dwell on them. I've come a long way in the past 10 months and I've worked my ass off to get there. Why can't I focus on the good things that have happened and the positive changes that I've made? Has anyone else experienced this? Please let me know. Oh yeah and she's constantly telling me to journal...so I guess that's pretty much the reason I started this...this is my journal...ok so that's pretty much all I have to say on that...comments, please!